At least there is no doubt anymore, now I clearly know what has been going on
and I'm sorry...
I am sorry because I didn't respect the unwritten contract of the erotic part of their friendship
I'm sorry because I cannot even hate her anymore
Sympathy!!! yes! that's my sentence! I am a war criminal and I have been convicted to be voluntarily nice!
That's the worst conviction ever: for there is nothing heavier than compassion, not even one's own problem weighs so heavy as the burden one feels for somebody(or with somebody). It's intensified by imagination and prolonged by hundred of echoes