As long as you get the result, why should you mind if they think you are talking bullshit or acting childish, who are they after all

Did you know that you may have orgasm in the most irrelevant moment? It was the first time that I experienced it

I don't know if it has anything to do with the situation or not, but here is what happened

I somehow knew what was going on.... after all I'm not 16 anymore and I DO know him much better than what he thinks, but I was ok, still I cannot say I'm totally fine, but, let say I didn't mind, I just wanted to be respected enough to be told , I wouldn't have done anything more than what I did, may be even less.... welll.... maybe it's my fault that they had to tell me lies

Anyway, I called and finally I was told

when I closed the door, when I went upstairs, I felt relax, calm as a dead, and I didn't know why, I expected myself to be upset but....and suddenly it happened....god... I was trembling....my pounding heart was about to come out.... and it was one of the best orgasm I've ever had.... I have no idea how it happened

!!!! cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

We talked irrelevant, I got anxious, he reminded me that I am not supposed to, so I got upset
next mood swing: 6 minuts
So, after less than 6 mins I was all fine agin .... I've started to be myself again, not staying in unwanted moods! and also not caring too much about those who don't care, and even if they do, as they say vaase yeki bemir ke baraat tab kone
anyway, everybody is complicated enough to be misunderstood, otherwise he wouldn't worth to be tried at !all

Only Irish coffee provides in a single glass all four essential food groups: alcohol, caffeine, sugar and fat. - Alex Levine

Yes, I'm fine.... but there's something wrong again....everything seems perfectly nice! but the HAND has come back! so has the allergy. There must be something wrong, I know what is missing. actually I exactly know what is going wrong! but I suppose I've made that pact with myself, Logically I should be fine now

I remember I have been writting it before, well.... it's not my fault if I still think the same, and here is the thought

you don't have to like everybody, in fact there may be lots of people that you don't like them, but you don't hate them!!! you feel that you hate somebody exactly when you assume they have sort of power (obviously more than you) that you are afraid they may use it against you, otherwise what can bother you that much that make you hate them... unfortunately it is a fact that when women feel jealous they think they hate the one they are jealous of, However they could simply not like that person!!!

Of course there are some other reasons for hating somebody, for an instant tonight I hate myself merely because I have just added another person to my list! why should I be so fragile?!!! ah, It makes me hate myself!